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You were in my dreams while I slept forever
#Ultrakill#V1 Ultrakill#CW:#Blood#Justice isn't shown because it's stabbed through Gabriel. Hope this helps.#This was a warmup that didn't turn out at All like the sketch. It was supposed to be hooked up to a terminal but that muddied the#composition so I removed it. Sorry Terminal you were meant to be the focus here also the whole thing was meant to be an insect pinning </3#Ah well. Always time to try again#Hrokkall art
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"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi suckening#jrwi suckening spoilers#jrwi the suckening#arthur bennett#HEY SO THE REALLY FUNNY THING THAT THE CHARACTER DID THAT SEEMED RLY SILLY N GOOFY IN THE MOMENT?#LIKE THE WHIPLASH BETWEEN SERIOUS N SILLY ALMOST PISSED YOU OFF? WHAT IF I FOUND A WAY TO MAKE YOU SAD ABOUT IT#this was meant to be a scribble that would be a bigger part of a bigger page.might leave it on that page.#but still. bc o that i nearly posted it onto my wacky side blog.BUT NAYY I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME N ENERGY N YOU GOTTA SEE IT#ARTHUR BENNETT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I FEEL LIKE ITS ODD FOR HIM TO BE SO TECHNOLOGICALLY OUT OF TOUCH#WHERE HAS HE BEEN. HAS HE BEEN IN WAR? IS THAT WHERE MAGNUS CAME FROM? WHERE WAS HE WHEN HE WAS WITH EDWARDS CREW?#ARTHURRR I HAVE QUESTIONS ARTTHUUURR!! HEY CAN I ALSO ASK; WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BECOME#DO YOU THINK HE HAD ANY IDEA HE WOULD VEER CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THE MONSTER HE DESPISES. ALL BC HE DESERVES IT. OR WATEVER#HE FASCINATES ME SO MUCH. TO LOOK AT THE STONE COLD STOIC FOOL FROM THE START OF THE SHOW#AND TO FIND OUT THAT HE USED TO BE A BAD BOY.. A DELINQUENT... A LIL PRANKSTER.... MY GODDD THATS ADORABLE#I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW MORE.... BUT I DOUBT THE LAST EPISODE IS GONNA ANSWER THOSE QUESTIONS..i love arthur bennett so much....#AS FOR THE ART!! i mostly used the fire alpaca watercolor brush. tbh im not a brush guy. anti aliased default pen tends to be my main game#but LATELY IM SQQQUIRMIN OUT OF AN ARTBLOCK so expirimenting like this is helping#DONT LOOK TOO HARD AT IT!! im still proud tho. colors are fun :3 im also very proud of the backgrounds#I LOVE THE CARTOON THING where the background looks all fancy n painted but the characters are solid colors#what else can i ramble abt. OH YEAH. i looked up the bikes to make sure they were time accurate tehehehe. 1913 to 2012.#almost a century apart!! isnt that neat? ALSO FUUUCK CAN I JUST MAKE A QUICK CONFESSION. DOWN HERE IN MY TAGS.#only the strongest can read my tags anwyay. SO I REALIZED WHY I LOVE ARTHUR SO MUCH. TIME IS A FLAT CIRCLE#while arthur is a Stoic and Cool vampire w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORs#THERE HAPPENS TO BE A ROBOT FROM A BAND W A TITANIUM ALLOY SPINAL COLLUMN#WHOS A Stoic and Cool ROBOT w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORS#the fuckkkiiinnngggnn The Spine from steam powered giraffe. WHATEVER. i cant escape from my heart. i guess.#i think The Spine and Arthur could be friends. Arthur saw the band perform back when they were the Steam Man Band#EDIT: WOOPS I DIDNT REALIZE THIS WOULD END UP IN THE SPG TAG. HI GUYS DIDNT KNOW U WERE STILL ALIVE SORREE 4 THE CROSS CONTAMINATION
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so. uh. Wild Life finale huh
#wild life spoilers#life series spoilers#uhhhh okay wait i need to ramble a bit more here first to then get into the finale stuff#because. im putting my thoughts and spoilers in the tags#so fun fact i waited for 3 hours avoiding spoilers for Pearl’s pov to then find out it’s getting posted tmr#so. those were 3 insanity inducing hours#anyway. so uh. what the fuck was that#it was wild. ill give it that. it was wild and nothing else#the winner seemed fitting the final battle IS wild but. okay? i dont. what arcs actually got resolved here#that just didnt feel like a proper ending yknow??? i know its improv and all that and none of it is planned but. i can at least say that i#feel like the wild card mechanic as a whole was too intrusive for a life series gimmick#and as a result none of the established arcs/plots/relationships can get a somewhat satisfying conclusion. because oh wowie theres a fucking#snail chasing me again. oh theres vexes everywhere oh wow hey uh Gem i know we haven’t really come to any meaningful end to this fight we’ve#been having all season but can you help me with a trivia question. oh oopsies you died to a vex. oh well#so those are my. initial thoughts#Scott getting permakilled by a shot meant for Joel was awesome though 10/10#mcyt
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i finished the episode and I genuinely. can’t stop thinking about it THE FIFTH TRUDY. THE FIFTH. (i have so many thoughts about her trying so hard to be the perfect woman/wife/mother and it ending up being a horrific image. none of them are coherent yet though)
YEAH. YEAH. im right with you on the not having coherent thoughts part but ooooo trudy trout when the need to be the perfect woman and perfect wife and perfect homemaker has been haunting her without her realizing it. she may be a completely new person but that still isn't enough to get rid of deep and profound need to be exactly what tucker and everyone else have been telling her to be her entire life. I think she should resent Kelsey for living the life she was meant to have just a little bit.
#like literally my god. she was going to college she had dreams and prospects she wanted to help other women build communities#the odds were stacked against her having a child and yet it happens at the worst time possible.#like she obviously loves Timmy and loved Timmy but also on some level she was not meant to be a mother you know. it was forced on her.#and then here comes this woman who's all grown up and just like you when you were younger#how wonderful it must feel to know it's still possible but how awful it must feel to see what you could have become if it weren't for tucke#sorry im rotating the Kelsey trudy parallels very much rn I kind of can't stop thinking about trudy#dndads#ALSO I JUST SAW ALL YOUR REBLOGS?? WAUGH???? THANK YOU????
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Grips my shirt and tears it apart so that all the buttons go flying and SCREAMS I love Law and Cora so much what the FUCK!!!!
#Shima speaks#SLAMS MY HEAD INTO THE WALL. BREAKING THE PLASTER. LEAVING A HOLE#AGHHH. AGHHFHF HELP#Cora who saw a kid so angry and bitter at the world decided to throw away everything to save him despite the whole WORLD saying he couldn’t#Law who finally realized there’s still hope left in the world and hope left for him and there’s someone willing to sacrifice EVERYTHING#Just to save him. Just to give him a fighting chance. Just to let him be FREE#Law who came to realize how much Cora meant to him and how much love and care Cora had for him. Then losing all that in an INSTANT#The one person he cared about more than anything sacrificed his LIFE for him#And Law spent the next 13 YEARS working to avenge Cora…naming his pirate crew getting tattoos fashioning his Jolly Roger ALL after Cora#TATTOOS!!! HE GOT PERMANENT MARKINGS ON HIS BODY SYMBOLIZING CORA#I’M. GOING TO FUCKING EXPLODE AND BLOW UP. WHAT THE FUCKKKKKK#Oda writing the most epic revenge quest in history#They mean so much to me I’m GOING to die. Right here and now#Cora giving up everything for Law and Law giving up everything for Cora…THAT’S TRUE LOVE BABEY#No matter what kind of form it comes in that’s TRUE. LOVE. PERIODT#One Piece#Do you think Law still would have gotten tattoos symbolizing Cora if Cora had lived. I wonder about that sometimes.#I feel like he would. I feel like he’d wear them proudly and Cora would be SO embarrassed about it#Law’s not shy about shit like that he’d be super smug about it too#Law: You saved me and gave my life meaning why WOULDN’T I want to permanently mark my body to honor that#Cora: Because it’s embarrassing! Lawwww!!! 😭#Law: Too bad doing it anyway <3#Cora: You know what. Fine. But I’m getting a tattoo that symbolizes YOU#Law: PLEASE???#Cora: WH. WAIT THAT BACKFIRED THAT IS NOT HOW YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO REACT#Cora you NEED to match his freak okay.#I heavily hc Law to be absolutely unhinged over the people he cares about#Like scarily possessive AND obsessive kind of unhinged#He and Cora can have an unhealthy codependent relationship. As a treat <3#Okay shutting up now SORRY I’m just. Unwell. Sighs dramatically
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forever thinking about being roxy and dirk. growing up isolated and alone at the end of the world, your only lifeline the supplies someone long dead left behind for you. there's the food, yeah, but there's also the clothes that are too big for you. the gifts and notes marked for years in the future. the knowledge that someone, somewhere, all those years ago, knew (hoped?) that you'd survive this long, that you'd grow up enough to fit into and inherit everything left behind for when you're old enough.
the quiet terror of waking up one day and realising there's nothing left. no new clothes, no gifts hidden away somewhere, nothing that proves that you're meant to survive any longer than this. sure, eventually they play sburb and realise why it was all over, but before that - how must it feel knowing that the one person who was keeping you alive thought you weren't meant to survive any longer?
#i think about it sometimes#idk thats all you had left yk#almost like a silent reassurance that someone in the past cared about you#and thought you were still meant to be alive. cared enough to try and keep you that way#how must it feel when they seemingly gave up on that#either theyd finally died#or theyd somehow known that you werent meant to be here any longer#just like they knew that you would be here in the first place#just like theyve known so many things about your life. theyve never been wrong before right#sure you can keep yourself alive for a little longer without their help#but that almost emotional support is gone right#idk. fucked up#when the best case scenario is the one where theyve died. thats not great i think#me.txt
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Oh yeah also wanted to share with the Sunflowers that this weekend I’m gonna do one of those invasive plant pulling events in a local park!! Its gonna be my first time going to one and I’m excited (and a lil nervous but yknow). A friend’s also coming with so I don’t gotta be alone, which I appreciate because A: nervous about going alone and B: she doesn’t even like plants or outdoorsy stuff so we have to stan her putting up with my idea of Fun Activity being ‘yanking plants out of the ground’
All this to say I urge yall to go live out your solarpunky dreams. And apparently the native plant society’s website is a good place to start finding events like these.
#out of queue#ani rambles#‘ani thats obvious’ clearly not enough#i always thought these were a like ‘if you know you know’ kinda thing. like a word of mouth thing#or ‘if you don’t walk on the street and find a poster taped to a light pole you simply aren’t meant to know’#but no. all you gotta do is go to your county’s native plant society’s event page and they’ll be like#‘COME HELP US. HERES THE DAY. HERES THE TIME. BRING SUPPLIES. HANG OUT.#man. i need to get gardening gloves huh.#and maybe a tool to bring other than a trowel#well actually it says shovel or trowel#it also says buckets or garden wagons but uh#can’t bring those bc im staying at my friends house for awhile
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I just know mirabel tried to fight casita after it embarrassed her like this! she took it personally!
#encanto#encanto disney#disneys encanto#mirabel madrigal#mirabel encanto#encanto casita#did her so dirty here!#imagine mirabel trying to argue with casita in her room but casita flips a tile so she loses her balance💀#like you were meant to help here!?#but just made her look a fool!#dolores I’m so sorry you have to hear mirabel yelling profanities at her floorboards#disney’s encanto
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Okay, we talk shit about Agatha killing all those witches, but - with one exception (Alice), every single one of those witches also tried to kill her.
Every. Single. One.
Those witches would still have tried to get a coven together to seek a road that wasn't there, would still have not been able to summon a road that wasn't there, and likely still would have lashed out at the other witches around them for being unable to summon a road that wasn't there.
Agatha provoked them to attack her specifically, sure.
But they still attacked her.
#musings#agatha all along#agatha harkness#NOW#THIS DOESN'T MEAN AGATHA DIDN'T KILL THEM#AND IT DOESN'T MAKE IT /OKAY/ THAT AGATHA KILLED THEM#JUST TO POINT THAT OUT AGATHA IS STILL VERY MUCH A VILLAIN HERE#THAT'S NOT WHAT I MEANT#JUST#-gestures-#sometimes when you are in a desperate enough spot to try something like#summoning a road that doesn't exist but will give you anything you want if you survive to the end#or cocky and arrogant enough to think you'll succeed where only one witch has ever been said to succeed#(or for a while NO witch probably)#when you have that hope ripped away from you?#and like - even BEFORE the road con witches were attacking agatha to kill her#when nicky was a baby - 'who invited HER in'#everyone KNEW that agatha harkness killed her coven#and were primed to attack her and kill her#that doesn't make what she did okay by any means#idk it's just#there's more to it#alice may be the first time someone blasted her to HELP her instead of kill her#(and billy after)#a n y w a y
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spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner
#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr#me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel#and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need#space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time#but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single#Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was#much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh#i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups#and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that#definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him#its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh#cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did#like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess#guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here#and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno#we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff#that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting#i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it#i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu#anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu#publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago#n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus#being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the#stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)
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JoJo Siwa doesn’t deserve all the hate (and homophobia) she’s getting for her style and music; but she does deserve scrutiny for defending Colleen Ballinger and being both active and complicit in abuse that happened on her TV show. Like the girl has been under the public eye in unhealthy environments all her life; cut her some slack — not too much; she’s still a responsible adult — but if you’re going to dogpile her, then at least dogpile her for the right reasons. Jesus Fucking Christ.
#jojo siwa#discourse#Her comment sections are VILE#I actually don’t hate her songs. They’re basically early-2000s new old stock and I like early 2000s music#Is she trying too hard to look like an “adult?” Yes. But that’s understandable.#What isn’t understandable is screaming at children for no fucking reason#and JoJo not helping at all when a girl was hemorrhaging out her belly button#when JoJo’s mother told the girl to “put a pad on it”#I don’t care how afraid you are of your parents; you END that shit the second you see it#I was raised in a cult and I actively sabotaged my parents’ preaching work on multiple occasions#I didn’t know if I’d get kicked out if they found out I did that; the only reason I still have a relationship with them#is because they never found out about my later sabotage#Dad preached to a waitress dangling a cure for her sons’ disorder in front of her nose as incentive to join and gave her literature#So I went to the restaurant with him and insisted I pay for the tip.#I gave her eight dollars and a sticky note with a bunch of keywords about the cult’s abuses to look up#The next time I went there#she said didn’t understand the sticky note and asked me while he was gone what I meant#I hate talking to people especially when I’m under pressure because I trip over my words even when I’m NOT anxious#But her kids’ lives being free of a cult meant more to me than avoiding a momentary discomfort so I gave a quick rundown#She thanked me and heeded my warning basically playing along with me and not saying anything to my dad about it#I was 20; JoJo was about 19 when her show was going on#She had no excuse for allowing her mom to do that.#At the very least she could have said “Oh god I’m so sorry she said that. Please don’t hurt yourself for my show; go to the hospital.”#But no. She didn’t do that. In fact she screamed at children and joked that if they were crying then it was a good show.#Bitch come here and do that in front of me. I double dog dare you. I may only be 5’5” but I fight dirty and I’m angrier than you#Sorry. I guess I do hate her… for THAT specifically.#Like yeah I’ve fucked up with the kids I help and yelled when I didn’t have to but I HATED doing it and tried to do better later#Why someone would SCREAM at kids on purpose for long periods of time for no reason is beyond me
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just need to vent about the Olympics
#Saw the shittiest take saying “on top of the emotional distress on imane imagine how much in danger she is back home”#are you stupid? no seriously. are you stupid?#You think the entire goddamn country who sent here to the Olympics and the mena singing her praises didn't already know about the yx thing?#“oh i meant like bc of the trans allegations and yk”#literally go fuck yourself#don't make the cost of yout activism the demeaning of arab countries and painting us as savages#some of you are too comfortable showing your racism and ignorance under the guise of supporting queer identities#surprise surprise! us in those “barbaric uncivilised” countries don't go throwing people over roofs bc of trans allegations#Yes women can dress as manly as they want and hijab is never forced. Do you ever think before you speak??#Women like imane are welcomed and common in arab countries#the transphobes we have here are the same fucking ones you have in the west! how come yours is special and civilised terfs???#And stop calling her khalif for fucks sake. learn how arabic names work before butchering them with your ignorant self centered naming systm#Imane is her first name. Khalif is her FATHER'S first name. You're calling her by her father's first name NOT her last name#arabic names go with your first name first. father's first name second. grandpa firstname third then great grandpa THEN last name#call her imane and stop embarrassing yourself bc you're just calling her by a man's name. her father's#“trans allegations” as if our people take the west media seriously rather than a circus show at best. You're repeating old news.#And even if there were. People here are actually a community nurtured on kindness. even the most conservatives mind their business#We're raised on being a community. strangers are your brothers and sisters. Live and let live#But your goddamn media takes stories of religion extremist and paints ALL of us like that. and your tiny brain actually believes it#Hey! you know those gay stories on my blog you've been reading? They were written by a savage arab oh no!#They were written by someone who lives in those dangerous arabic countries! oh no!#You don't know our culture. You don't know our beliefs. You will never grasp our ideals bc they were weaved from kindness and helping others#So don't fucking talk shit about things you know NOTHING about. You don't know the queer arab struggles#the same bad apples you have there we have here. shitty people are shitty regardless of nationality#But actually we do have some etiquette and considerations for others here. We don't go throwing bricks at queen tourists do we?#So why would we do it to our own people you sad excuse of a human
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There is a lighthouse In the middle of the deep And I'm still stranded on the shoreline there And nobody hears me scream
#aliasedit#alias#irina derevko#julian sark#userthing#irina x sark#alias au#isplus#myedit#a vampire au with irina as sark's sire#thinking about how irina turning him - IRINA KILLING HIM - fits into their canon dynamic.#irina as the catalyst for his change. for his transformation. as the one giving him his second life.#the second life he might have begged her for. or the second life that was forced on him.#the life he rejected but grew to see as a gift. grew to see as something he has always wanted.#as something that was meant to happen to him. as something that made him only better.#because it helped to erase who he was before - no one and nothing.#no matter how you look at it; it's either irina killing him/a part of him or it's sark killing a part of himself in order to survive her.#there's no other story.#also thinking about how this AU might change the irina/sark/sydney dynamic.#here's someone who died for your mother. someone who's younger than you.#someone who might not have been given a choice. someone who might not have known what he was agreeing to.#who might not have known that he would have to die to get that power irina lured him with. someone who's never going to get his life back.#would it be easy to write him off. when the evidence of how irina affected and shaped his life is right in front of you.#could he become an ally against irina instead.#who's responsible for turning irina is open to interpretation - khasinau? cuvee? one of her sisters? sloane? JACK?#i like the idea of jack being secretly a vampire This Whole Time with only irina and sloane in-the-know.#also the idea of irina first coming to the us as an innocent who genuinely believed that she was doing the right thing;#only to leave with all her principles lost and no longer human.#irina to jack in 203 of this verse: does sydney know? does sydney know that you're one of us?#you haven't told her have you. that you were the one who killed me.
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i hate astrology stuff too but i think this show sometimes misses that the belief systems of different planets aren't usually the problem. the governments based on belief systems are.
#TO tag#just all the... 'you guys are an advanced civilization you cant possibly believe this stuff!!!!!!1!1!' talk#it isn't about belief it is clearly a method of scapegoating and false order Because of it being a governmental tool#if it were just individuals finding meaning in it harmlessly then... the advance civ thing doesn't contradict that#it's stupid to base an entire gov system off of it without evidence but it's not stupid for individuals to find meaning in spirituality#that argument abt being advanced is meant to try getting through to those people because it's a dire situation but#it was a similar thing last episode with trying to get through to teleya#where... again! dire circumstances! and careful wording about how usually when species to go space they become less rigid#in a species-centric religion but instead the krill went into it harder#and that was moreover about the xenophobia issues than religion#i don't think the show has so far dismissed the importance of belief outright#BUT it keeps going right up to the edge and even as someone who isn't religious i am gritting my teeth waiting for#some church of the flying spaghetti monster reddit atheist bro takes#and i just really hope it keeps giving plausible deniability of being on the other side of that#anyway maybe none of this matters bc the belief systems in question are methods of categorization and superiority and hierarchy#based on things that cannot be helped like species or birthdate and that's unfair and clearly results in fucked up stuff#and can very much be harmful on that individual level too#i just wonder if this show has ever done belief systems in a positive light in conjunction with showing how they can be harmful#anyway. something about ed playign god here with the star thing. i dont have the braincells to think more on this.
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missed an important deadline bc my stupid bitch of a brain decided that checking the cutoff date (or just fucking doing it when i found out it was due) was too stressful so instead it's been looming, lurking, etc in the back of my mind for WEEKS and i just now managed to get nauseous and nervous and overstimulated enough to force myself into productive manic panic energy mode and i'm sooooo fucking tired of needing to force myself into productive manic panic energy mode to do literally anything the least bit stressful. what do you mean i need to hype myself up for weeks to open a website to check a single date be so fucking for real right nowwwwww
#it was my first enrollment period for classes next quarter and <3 just found out that one of the classes i needed isn't <3 offered <3#here i thought my meds were meant to help me power through the nearly insurmountable mental illness and yet. and fucking yet!#is anyone else tired like i can't be the only one who's just fucking tired of living like this#i mean i hope you're not all living like this bc that'd be miserable but if you are you're not alone i suppose#you might not be alone but i am bc i'm built different 💪 i'm incapable of asking for help or reassurance unless i'm breaking down and even#then i'm typing into the void rather than. telling someone with the power to help me. tee hee#a post
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#sry i just wanted to draw something for them. even though its not very good#was a bit hard to draw through tears. its been hard.#i need to vent in the tags so please pardon if its not smthn u want to read#ive been so struck with guilt for what i didnt do and what more i shouldve done. the pain of how alone i feel now#but they did so much for me. they were the only family i rlly had here. they helped me grow to be more responsible caring and loving#and i just am overwhelmed with how much they both meant to me and just how much love was shared. im so thankful to them for everything#theyve been with me for nearly half my lifetime!! it really felt like we were going to be together for an eternity.#i hope theyre doing well wherever they are now. i hope theyre getting to do everything they couldve ever wanted#its still really hard to process all of this and how everythings so different now. i miss them both so much.#i love you kitt. i love you stinky. always and forever <3
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